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Day of the dead design 2 by godzillasmash
Day of the dead design 2
here is the second, of a set of three pieces for artprints that I will be selling soon. All day of the dead theme. I will give information soon on how to get them.

Richard LeGarreta
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Day of the dead artprint design by godzillasmash
Day of the dead artprint design
going to do a set of art prints to sell. this is one of them. a set of three, day of the dead prints. will post more information later.
enjoy!!!
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Bigiful Nuvoue by godzillasmash
Bigiful Nuvoue
a new piece I did last night. Trying to work a new line of prints to sell. it will be MOSTLY based on bbw's.
enjoy!!
Richard LeGarreta
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Lisa Marie by godzillasmash
Lisa Marie
here is the stand alone of this piece.
Richard LeGarreta
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Lisa Marie sdsd by godzillasmash
Lisa Marie sdsd
Another portrait I did. really happy with this one.
enjoy
Richard LeGarreta
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A combination of my brother's heart attack (hes doing good now by the way) and a huge blowout at my work with the two people I hate the most, I had a massive Anxiety attack. I thought I was having a heart attack, my heart was beating like crazy, my chest hurt, I was so in so much stress I didn't know what to do. This went on for a few days. The first few days were horrible horrible. I got massive hot face flushes and my teeth always clenched and I would panic out of nowhere. My mind kept thinking about what was happening, not knowing what to do, and that made it worse. Day and night I was in really bad shape. My breath was hard to catch in these modes. I looked up the symptoms and they were either a heart attack, or a  massive anxiety attack. The more I read, (of course) the more I freaked my self out, but my strict deductive mentality kept telling me that I was having anxiety, because not all the symptoms of a heart attack were there. Also, as soon as I walked out of the work building, it would diminish, greatly. The more I read, the better control I was able to put on it. I psychoanalyze myself.  I believe that in that moment (along with the panic of my brothers heart attack in the back of my mind) I was helpless, as mentally helpless as a baby in the woods. Something snapped that moment and it sent me reeling over the edge of a long cliff. To dig deep here, my father used to beat us brothers as kids, pretty badly. At one point, I was about 6 or 7, and in the morning, before school, he had beat me so badly, but till this day, I can't remember it. I DO know that when I got to school, the teachers freaked out on how I looked I guess. I was sent to the nurses office and they called the police. I remember them taking pictures of me, I guess I was pretty beat up. After that, we, my brothers and I, were taken away from my house for awhile, and lived with my aunt and uncle. Sometime later, we were back home, like from a long vacation. He never touched us again after that. till this day, I don't know remember what he did to me or what happened to him, but everything changed after that. I believe that I still suffer from some trauma from that time and I believe that that day in the office, it triggered the same emotion. 
     Since then, I still suffer from some minor problems, but going back to work, confronting the people on a daily basis, telling myself i'm not going to die, is helping. I'm feeling better and better each day, little by little. The anxiety is wearing away. I'm trying to rationalize the situation and my own mentality towards something better and more positive. Deep breathing and relaxation helps a lot too. I felt like I needed to tell you guys, since, in a sense, some of you have become like a DA family and I appreciate the support.
   My book is now entering the inking phase and I've got a lot of projects that I've put off for years in the makings now. I need to look at a brighter future and know that the mind is a fragile thing, and a powerful thing, and I need to utilize it towards something better and greater. I will prevail. I will overcome.

Richard LeGarreta
  • Listening to: nickel back
  • Reading: not much really
  • Watching: the strain
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: as healthy as I can
  • Drinking: lots and lots of water

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United States
Current Residence: Sylmar, Cal.
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Favourite photographer: JennyJeanna, boxed photos, lovitgirl, sexybyatch
Favourite style of art: digital, all kinds really, if it looks cool, then I can dig it.
Operating System: PC, but mac too
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Shell of choice: ninja turtle
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Skin of choice: My wife's soft skin
Favourite cartoon character: Major, on Ghost in the Shell
Personal Quote: Life is as good today as it can be tomorrow
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KurtKrueger Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Professional Photographer
Thanks for the watch!  

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MTL3 Featured By Owner 4 days ago   Photographer
Many thanks for the :+fav: :)
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godzillasmash Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Professional Digital Artist
your welcome!
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gfriedberg Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks very, very much for all the latest <fav>s -- really pleased you like my work.

And I hope everything's calmer now, under control . . . 
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godzillasmash Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Professional Digital Artist
thank you very much. I love your work. I think sometime, I would like to do a piece based off your photography.
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Marbeach Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave.. Cheers
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godzillasmash Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
your welcome! lovely work.
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MechaFanPR Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fave!
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:thanks: for all the :+fav:'s :w00t: 
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